Patience is a virtue and I am learning patience. It’s a tough lesson though. Elon Musk
Relax into this. Don’t run after it like you are being chased by the hounds of hell. Anonymous
I am learning patience while I practice staying with my inner being. My human mind is so impatient: it is like a toddler who drank Mountain Dew, hyperactive, antsy and can’t sit still to save her life. Becoming more mindful of my habits and patterns is making me very aware of this mental impatience, of wanting to be “there” right now; as if being “there” is a destination rather than a journey that lasts my entire life. I know reaching this spiritual centeredness of calm and serenity requires removing this pattern from my internal programming. Yet I cannot remove what I keep reaching for. I know this for a fact: I’ve tried. So while I say I want to sit still and not wander away from my higher mind, the truth is that I do this every day, over and over, when faced with a wide variety of people, situations, circumstances, and events.
Don’t get me wrong — it’s not hopeless. In fact, I can see real progress in the last several weeks since I started writing this blog. Putting thoughts and words down into a blog post is a wonderfully clarifying process. It takes vague ideas and the best of intentions out of my head and puts them front and center in my awareness.
So today I am trying to put down the mental Mountain Dew. I am relaxing into my spiritual practice more and noticing things I never saw before. The pitfalls are getting more obvious. It’s not that I never make missteps, but they are becoming clearer at the moment, rather the hindsight of looking at them in the rearview mirror.
Affirmation: Today I stay with my higher mind and soul, in her peace and serenity.